Yes, i am ranting!!! I've had more than one revelation about this person that i know... And it totally changed my whole perception of this person's character! He's full of shit... As in talk shit!!! I'll let you in first on what i found out before i get so worked up over this...

A friend of mine told me that he has been telling two girls (GIRL A: the one he used to "date" / GIRL B: the one he's currently "pursuing") that i was so head over heels in love with him!!!! *the fudge!!!* admittedly, yes, I USED to love the idea of falling in love with him or even to the point of being with him but F.Y.I: i am so happy and content with ashby right now... AS IN! I just don't get the point of him doing so. Is it to boost his ego or something? He really must have the balls to be able to do such a thing!!! *urggghhh* I soooooo despise him!!!!

I am seriously hoping that karma would catch up with him at the soonest possible time! Coz i don't want to be the one to get back at him! I've been seriously devicing ways of how to do so... Despicable ways come to think of it... It's so mean, i know, but I just can't help it. I trusted him. I thought he was a true friend. 1 BIG, FAT MISTAKE, 1 BIG FAT LIAR!!! If you're reading this, I hope you realize that this is you! Good riddance!!!

ON A DIFFERENT NOTE....

*Gawsh* It's summer and i haven't had the time to go to the beach or to wherever!.... *dang!* been too busy with work these past few months... been concentrating too much! *haaay* haven't been able to spend much time with my friends the last time that i went out with them either... :( Then again i'm looking forward to the puerto trip they're planning! Hoping we'd be complete when it pushes through though... Same as with the bora trip!!!! I wish we can go somewhere else but i'm not complaining, it's just that i want to explore other beaches here as well...

Oh well papel...

just a recap of what has happened within the past days...

March 10,'06 - My beau's birthday bash! NOT!!! *haha* didn't have 'nuf moolah to even buy him a present! that's my current state! go figure! *haha* we just went home, slept the day away.. *haaay*


March 11,'06 - Had our team building! Super fun!!! *haha* had breakfast then went swimming! the place was great! Love the pool! though just at 4 ft, ang ganda... it even has a stage in the middle! pictorial moments!!! *haha* enjoy talaga! but the thing that i liked most about what we did was when we wall climbed!!! i was the first one to go! *shoot!* na-tense ako talaga kasi it was just supposed to be a demo on how to belay, but the instructor told me to continue going up already! man was i fast! ang sarap! scary at first kasi mataas, nakakalula.. specially pag nakabitaw ka... the first level of the climb was kinda easy, so they all urged mo to climb the second one which had a sloping part at the top! unfortunately, that was the one that stopped me reaching the top! being the obsessive and persistent person that i am, that didn't stop me from trying though! *haha* i went up again, i got as far as two more rocks than to where i stopped earlier. there were just, like, 3/4 more steps before the top, but i'm telling you, it ain't easy as it looks! didn't wan't to give up easily, i fought the pain and gravity with all my might. much to my dismay, they both won! *haha* least i tried my best! *cheers to that!*


March 12,'06 - Oh geesh... My persistence got the best of me! *hahaha* my arms and shoulders where aching from the sudden exertion of energy yesterday! "Back rub please?" *anyone up for the taking?* *hehe*


March 15,'06 - *dang!!!* can't sleep... went to bed around 2:30 already! it's just that, today, i found out that there's a possibility of me leaving for the states with papa and my younger brother... :(

last sunday was one heck of a party! our account, as always, was in full support! unfortunately, keesha didn't win. then again, to us, she was the true victor of the competition!!! *hoorah!*

MTV was there, and it was marc abaya who was among the guest celebrity judges! *dang!* wasn't even able to take a picture of him! *urgh!!!!* the agony of being so near, yet so far! *hahaha*

man, was i pissed that night! bad idea.. *tsk,tsk,tsk* didn't know that i was gonna be commended as 'Employee of the Year' for our account! i was scared of tripping over the stairs! tipsy, tipsy!i was truly touched... from what most of them told me, the
tc's voted for it.. and was i ever thankful for what they've done..

then again, i didn't expect my night to end up as a disaster! ashby and i fought, it wasn't pretty! i hated him that night so much that i didn't care if people thought that i was a drama queen! i wouldn't care any less!!! i don't think our relationship would ever be the same again... i don't think i'll ever be the same again. i was hurt... hurt so much by what he did.... i hated him.

days passed and he seems to be more attentive and sweet than the usual.. i couldn't/cannot take it. it feels like he's sugar-coating his mistakes... *argh!!!*

anyway, the applicants for the tc position's finally short listed... wasn't surprised that i'm not among them... i'm ok.. please don't pity me... i'm happy here anyway... God has His own time for His plans to take effect, i am still here for a purpose, i know. Off course, i slightly feel bad because who wouldn't right? but as i said, i'm ok! promise! *haha*

the week's finally over, i can maybe use the spa gc i was awarded! it's not so bad, afterall, that's gonna be at the peninsula! 1 whole day of pampering! haaay!!!! *loving it!*

Brindle died last monday at dawn... he's our faithful boxer... yes, it's a dog... but then again, i still cried... On the brighter side, our other dog gave birth, i think it was about a month ago already so the pupps are kinda big for their age already... they're so cute!!! they recognize my voice already! hehehe still haven't named them though...

anyway, i am so happy! i was able to finally purchase my own car! can you believe it? my - own - car! for the longest time! oh well, it may not be the volkswagen that i'm looking for, but nevertheless, this would do... now, i just have to get my license! hahaha... no problem there, i have my sister anyway! hahaha

can't wait for sunday's town hall at araneta! though we're not gonna be performing, i'm still looking forward to it coz it's gonna be one heck of a P-A-R-T-A-A-A-A-Y!!!!! *haha* and off course, i'll be cheering for keesha!

my throat was really aching yesterday, felt like i was coming down with something... and guess what, i'm right! i am now officially sick, after how many months... oh well, i only get sick like once or twice a year anyway, but then again, expect it to be really bad... i remember last year that i was able to call out for only half the day because i couldn't get my words out right, i was super nasal i finished two and a half rolls of tissue for the whole 9 hours in the office!

anyway... i have been getting signs of me not to pass my resume... i tried printing it at home, imagine: we have 2 printers, none of them worked, well the other one did but then again it only printed out my e-mail address coz it was color blue! even the tryc that i rode stopped at every village trying to pick up passengers! then the jeep! oh the jeep! it went around festi pa! one last thing, jorel and i rode the same bus so we ended up walking to work together... which was kinda slow... so i arrived in the office like around 9:45 already, not giving me 'nuf time to run and try to find a printing shop... my last sign is if the floppy here in the office doesn't work, then im not really supposed to...

haay... wishful thinking...

happy valentine's everyone.. well that was the yesterday.. anyway, it has been a pretty long time since i last chanced upon my blog site... couldn't say that i had much time to spare to actually update it, now i think i do..

so, im here in the office, taking my lunch break supposed to be for sleeping, instead i choose this... not hungry nor sleepy anyway... darn it, i was updating my profile on friendster, i was already saving it when an error on the page occured! *shoot* wasn't even able to make a copy of it. and changing the url for the background's not working either... *slump*

3 hours after...

work for the day's done... now, something on my mind. i've been having doubts if im to pass my resume for the tc slot. i don't know! it's just that i suddenly got the cold feet when i thought about it yesterday. i don't know if i'll be able to actually handle a team. if before i only used to think of myself, what more about thinking of a bunch of individuals! - well that is if ever i'm to get the position! haha just wishful thinking! but still, the interview itself is a pretty scary thought! sometimes i think, maybe i'm not really cut out for that sh*t?

nuf bout work already!

last week, my beau gave me a bouquet of flowers on a day that i wasn't actually expecting him to! talk about took my breath away... it was last thursday after my lunch time when he suddenly popped his head out at the other side of my desk and reached out to gave me the bunch! i was talking to a respondent of mine, so i was just stuttering the whole time coz of shock! aaaww.... one of the best things that my pu has ever done for me... in return, i bought a gift for him. it's a miniature car kit of an evolution series VI! i was touched when he actually called me before i went to work coz he told me that he didin't go to sleep first because he already started working on assembling the car! :) i love you bog!

oh well, gotta go! destination: home! :)

ain't it funny how things turn out the way you don't expect them to be... hay naku, life, NOT LOVE, does move in mysterious ways as well...

last saturday was trish's 18th bday celebration at the makati sports club.. the lasagna was to die for!!! anyway, she was so stunning in her ball gown... i was not too shabby myself, except i slipped twice while i was on my way up the stage! darn red carpet, anyways good thing the camera didn't catch that!

anyway, the after party trip was kinda so and so... there was this bizaare event that actually took place while cruising around... a friend of mine actually took my my hand! well he asked why i was so cold, so i think that's what the gesture was all about , but nevertheless, it was such a long trip and even if my hands were already getting clammy from the warmth, he was still holding it! really odd, although i know that there's nothing beyond that...

6 hours of calling only... oh what a joy.. anyway, i'm here still in the office, enjoying the perks of being seated on a station with a pc that has internet access... finally, i am able to blog again.. darn it, if only friendster, even myspace, is not blocked...

it has been a tumultuous week for me.. a lot has been testing my patience here. thought of me going back to school has been haunting me recently... but it's actually the people who's pushing it...

like i've said yesterday, i believe in karma... in all my actions, in all the things that i say, i always ask the Lord to guide me so as not to offend Him, myself, and the people around me... tis true that you cant please everyone... even if you have the most modest intention... it has also never occured to me that my concern for another friend would then lead me to trouble... hay naku, tao lang, blame me and my bad judgement...

ay naku, problema... pity those who are close minded, for in the end, they are just bringing upon them the feeling of guilt and sometimes pride... that is knowing that their foolishness was a mistake...

lesson learned>>> trust no one... countless times i have told myself that, i never listen... from this day on, this will, once and for all, take effect.. hmph!!!

i have always believed in the power of karma. so as long as i know that i didn't do anything wrong, why isolate myself from the people around me?! problem is may mga taong talagang close- minded... haaayyy...

today, has been one whirlwind of a day for me... i was over quota which is actually great! but then again, there was this incident that i will and won't forget... ever wonder why things said or done, usually when word gets around, they end up being different from what you've actually said or done?! well, this i have proved to be true just today... there is such a term as verbatim you know... in the end somebody, usually the person from where 'the thing' originated from gets in trouble.... haaay, good thing we somehow patched things up.. point is, things were said, which i know somehow can be taken back, but like i said, damage has been done already, feelings hurt, relationships slight different... nevertheless, life goes on... deads na lang siguro basta i know, guilt-free ako.... period!